lucky me

Hindi ako mabuting anak kaya gusto ko maging mabuting nanay kay ainah. Gusto ko sya palakihin si ainah na naka alalay ako. Takot ako na matulad ang anak ko sa akin. Yun ang kinakatakot ko. Hindi pa ako handa 21 pa lang ako wala akong sapat na karanasan pero sa pag kakataong ito gusto kong pag aralan ang mga bagay-bagay. Sabi nila eksperyens ang pinaka magaling mag turo.

Twing uupo ako sa harap ng tv at mapapanood ko ang komersyal ng lucky me. Yung may batang babae na nakaen mag-isa, kinakausap ang mga cameraman habang pinapakita ang istar sa kamay at may bakas ng takot ang pa kukwento nyang may mamang nangako na babalikan sya. Na gagalingan ako sa arte ng bata sa kabilang banda gusto ko maiyak, tulad ng sinabi ko ayoko mangyari sa anak ko at napanood ko sa tv. Gusto ko syang gabayan. Ituro na mali ang mga nakikita nya.

Natuto ako mag yosi 3rd year high skul pa alng ako. Hindi naman kalakasan ang payoyosi ko tamang 5-10 istik lang sa isang araw minsan nga eh wala talaga. Ganun din naman ang tatay ng anak ko. Natuto sya mag yosi nung umuwi sya dito sa pinas. (laki sa saudi ang daddy nya muslim kasi). So ako hindi ko papayagan na sa murang edad matuto mag yosi ang dalaga ko okey na sa akin yung naka graduweyt sya ng kolehiyo. Ganun ako ka bagsik.

Sa pag jojowa naman di ko rin bet na bata pa lang sya eh nag susway na sya ng palda. Pwede na sya mag BF pag naka graduweyt na sya.. Pwede rin naman kahit college basta walang motmot. Erase-erase-erase.

Ayoko ng tumatakas pa sya makapag party lang, mag paalam ng matino ng mapayagan.

Ayoko rin ng mananagot ng wala naman sa katwiran. Kung magaling syang mag palusot o mag dahilan eh mas magaling ako. Halleerr natalo ko na sa debate ang isang lawyer ng dahil lang sa pag singit nya ng kaibigan sa pila.

Maraming magulang na sa gustong mabigyan ng magandang kinabukasan ang anak nakakalimutan na nila na bigyan ng masusing attensyon ang mga anak nila. Madalas eh ang yaya pa ang nag babantay o minsan naman ibang tao pa. Kaya may mga narerape, may mga abusado, mga kidnapper.

Mga magulang mahal natin ang anak natin kaya wag natin silang hayaang lumaki ng mag-isa sa mundo.

 

bata bata bakit ka ginawa

Kahapon, pag katapos ko mag novena sa baclaran na tutukso ang mga kamay ko na gumastos. ang daming magagandang designer bags tipong class A. Pero kulang ang oras ko para mag ikot. May mga bet din akong sapatos at damit. amf. Pigil-pigil-pigil. Natuwa ako kasi naiwasan ko ang isa sa matindi kong bisyo. So nilisan ko na ang mga mapang akit na tindahan. Habang naakyat ako sa overpass nakakita ako ng mga baby. Namamalimos, madumi at mukhang gutom na gutom. Nainis ako.

Kahit nung wala pa akong anak naiinis na ko sa mga magulang ng mga batang namamalimos sa daan. Naiinis ako hindi dahil namamalimos sila sa akin, naiinis ako dahil sa murang edad nila nararanasan na nila ang lupet ng mundo at lalo na ng lupet ng mga tao. Nung buhay pa si father dear madalas kami mag simba sa baclaran, sabi nya sa akin sindikato daw yung mga yun. kaya kung makulet ako eh ibibigay nya ko sa leader.

Sa mga leader ng sindikato: HINDI AKO SANG AYON SA GINAGAWA NYO MGA ANIMAL, ANG KAKAPAL NG SIKMURA NYO. KUNG GUSTO NYO YUMAMAN MAG BANAT KAYO NG BUTO. PUTANG INA NYO.

hindi ko rin magets ang punto ng mga magulang ng mga batang yun. Kung bakit natitiis nyo na nababasa ng ulan ang mga batang walang malay, nagugutom, hubad at babad sa mausok na hangin. kumakaen ng basura at nanlilimos mabuhay lang ang hayop na leader na yan. ANONG KLASE KANG MAGULANG. Hindi ko tatanggapin ang dahilan mong KAHIRAPAN, dahil ako eh mahirap din. Pare-pareho tayong mahirap.

Naisip ko kung mayaman lang ako aampunin ko lahat ng mga batang (yung bata lang as in edad 0-2) pakalat-kalat sa overpass. Gusto ko sila bigyan ng limos pero hindi yun ang sulosyon dun. Bigla akong nais sa gobyerno. nyeta anong gagawin nyo sa problemang to? Alangyangyan. Amfputaness.

Sa pag sakay ko ng bus nag iisip pa rin ako. Nagugutom ang mga batang yun kape ang nag sisilbing gatas nila, malamig ang semento, babad ang katawan walang suot na damit. Wala akong magagawa. Magalit man ako hindi ko pa rin sila matutulungan. Biglang pumasok sa utak ko ang mag-anak na nakita kong tulog sa bangketa. Naninimot ang bata ng tira-tira kong aysing sa binili kong tinapay. Tinataga ko sa bato hinding-hindi as in never to da highest level of never yan mangyayari sa pamilya ko, sa anak ko at sa lahat ng mahal ko sa buhay. Di bale ng mamatay ako kaka trabaho wag lang magutom at mamalimos ang mga mahal.

Nanawagan ako sa lahat ng mga company. Pag nag apply ako paki regular lang ako. Masipag po akong mag trabaho. Hindi po ako na absent nalalate lang pero hindi naman major late 3-8 mins late lang. Madali ako utusan, wala akong arte sa trabaho. Magaling ako makisama, maalindog rin at higit sa lahat magaling gumiling ng otcho-otcho.

 

knowing myself more

What the House Test Says About You

You have a high opinion of yourself. You think that you are quite important in the scheme of things… definitely more important than most people. You are a fairly community oriented person. You like to get to know your neighbors, but you also like your privacy. You get attached to neighborhoods and cities. You are a playful, charming, and seductive person. People feel instantly close to you. You take good care of your physical appearance. You dress well, stay in shape, and do your best to look great. You are moved by romance and love. You are optimistic about people, and you love hearing about happy endings.

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You are always tactful and diplomatic. You let people down gently. You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many acquaintances. You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren’t attainable.

What People Think of Your Mouth

People see you both as mysterious and exotic. You definitely have cultivated your own unique interests and lifestyle. Brainy and quick witted, you aren’t one for superficial friendships. But if someone can make you laugh or think, they’ll likely be your friend for life.

What Your Handbag Says About You

You are concerned with how you appear. Projecting your high status is important to you. You tend to be relaxed throughout the day. You are naturally at peace. You are a high maintenance person. You feel lost outside of your normal environment. You are open and comfortable with who you are. You don’t hide anything. Your motto is : “Be prepared.” You don’t like to be surprised by anything. You are practical and down to earth. You tend to be a rather reserved and quiet person. You are a very unique and special person. There’s no one else who is anything like you.

You Will Be a Modern Bride!

While you aren’t ready to throw away all wedding traditions, you want a wedding with a twist You’re more inspired by celebrity weddings on E! than from bridal magazines Whether this means getting married on the beach barefoot or a mariachi band for the reception… Your wedding will be a blend of old and new – white dress cocktail, personalized vows, whatever suites you!!!

 

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their names and it’s meaning

What Ainath Lahaina Means

You are usually the best at everything … you strive for perfection.You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.You have the classic “Type A” personality.You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It’s easy to get you excited… which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don’t stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless – and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You’re most comfortable when you’re far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you… especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You’re a strong person. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don’t get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

What Ash Gary Means

You are usually the best at everything … you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic “Type A” personality. You are the total package – suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don’t always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don’t have as much going for them as you do. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you… especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You’re a strong person. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don’t appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You’re always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can’t handle you. You’re very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you’re likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you’re too busy having fun to care.